I thought things were going well with Aladdin. Or at least as well as they could be, considering everything Aladdin has to deal with. But I guess they weren't. Because he dumped me last night.
And it sucks. He said he's trying to protect me, since his instability is bound to end up hurting anyone close to him. That's true, but I'd expressed to him that I didn't care. But he stuck to the "I'm not good enough for you" spiel. But that can't be it. That definitely can't be it. It's got to be a cover for an "I'm not interested anymore". I guess it's nice of him to try to soften the blow, but really, I'm just ticked off. And even if the "I'm doing this for you" thing is truly what he thinks, how the heck would he know what's best for me? He hasn't even got a clue what's best for him.
So now I'm back to where I was in the first place: loving and wanting to help Aladdin, and not being able to. Just when things are getting the worst for him.
Rejection sucks.
I can't figure out what I did wrong. I was kind, I was understanding, I didn't flip out over anything, I was loyal...
I guess I'll never be good enough.
Maybe he's doing it as an expression of his love for you?...
ReplyDeleteIf that were the case, it'd pretty much be the least effective thing the could possibly do. But it's a nice idea. Thanks.
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